With a name like that, it's the only reason you need for ordering this set.
Pickled vegetables Remember kids, to always eat your greens!
Chilled Tofu Forgot to take a picture but you should know what a tofu looks like.
Chawanmushi Basically a steamed egg custard. Just like the one mum always cook back home with minced meat. Why do you think it's called Chawanmushi? Cause it's served in a "cawan" and it's mushy! Actually googled it and it literally means "tea cup steam".
The main dish. Assorted sashimi with rice. I love sashimi! Felt kinda bad eating it though. Cause it just looks soo good!
Udon The noodles were nice and chewy! mmhmm~
Green Tea Ice-cream If you like green tea and ice-cream, I don't see any problem here. You get to choose between two flavours. The other being vanilla.
By the way, this is one of the set lunches served at Shoya. It's a bit pricey ($24.80 - $38pp) but it's definitely cheaper than the dinner menu ($80 -$150pp).
Seriously, how long are they gonna continue teasing us with trailer after trailer. Seems like this is the "final" Final Fantasy XIII trailer. Woots!~ It's looks pretty damn awesome. Especially the ending where it became all Star Wars / Gundam like.
Minute 3:49 is just pure gold.
I want a PS3 for Christmas! Then again, the english version's only coming out next year.
I'm not sure why but I've been feeling disappointed and dishearten these past few days. Must have been because I lost the video competition I wanted so badly to win or that McDonalds haven't gotten back to me about a part-time job yet. It sucks when you put so much effort into accomplishing something only to be bested or rejected.
I'm the kind of guy who loves winning. To be the best in what I do and what I can do. To be Number One! That's why I'm always putting a lot of effort into the things I do. Unfortunately, I never had and still don't have what it takes to stand at the top. I have always been the underdog. The least expected to win when it comes to studies, sports and even relationships. Looking back now, it's actually true.
However, I've always thought of myself as being a winner. Wanna know why? Cause the person I've always been competing with was, myself. I was the person who calls the shots. So as long as I've met my own expectations, I'll be happy. The problem with this is, well there's three problems actually:
1) Your standards may be too low for others. I aim for a 70 in an exam, mum's pissed off at why I couldn't get 80 plus. Team assignment. Your teammates aren't to happy with your work. They trash it and blame you when the results ain't satisfactory.
2) You set your standards to high. You aim to win 1st prize in a video competition. You finish 2nd.
3) You will always be subjected to comparison. Live with it.
Number 1 and 3 involves the opinion of others but number 2 is something more personal. Here's a secret about myself. I'm a dream believer. I believe in dreaming BIG and pursuing the unconventional. Alas, the harsh hands of reality has shocked me awake as if to say, "Wake up boy, stop being stupid." But when did we stop dreaming dreams? When did I stop dreaming dreams? HA! Is this what they call growing up? If so, I refuse to do so. I want to continue dreaming and honestly I want these dreams to become reality.
BUT........ there will always be the butt but. ( This is the part where everybody sighs )
But (again), I don't think we should be afraid of setting our standards high. Yes, we may and we will be disappointed but (yet again) it's like a game of rock-paper-scissors. You're bound to win at least once. If you don't, you could always nuke your opponents.
ps. Sorry for the show of weakness. I guess it's true when they say Christian men are more emotional. Hmmm maybe that's just me. But I guess it's alright once in a while. By the way, this have nothing to do with the amount of Japanese drama I've been watching recently. True story.
~ I've got lots more to work on but I'm still holding on ~
What’s on my mind right now? A lot of things and yet at the same time, nothing. Things are moving so quickly I’m afraid I can’t keep up. I’ve never been this afraid before. Afraid of the constant change in time and times. I feel that I’m about to lose something very important to me. My premonition never fails me. It’s like a sixth sense telling me to get ready.
It’s coming Julian.
But this time it's different. I don't think I'm strong enough to face it. I'm scared. I'm not even in the mood to joke. This time I'm not even brave enough to say, "Bring it!".
When did this all started? When did I begin to doubt? When did I stop holding on?
Onto hope. Onto future. Onto Him.
The same power that conquered the grave lives in me. Your love that rescued the Earth lives in me.
How can you be so nice God? It pains me. It freakin' pains me. I know that you've forgiven me. But still, it hurts. What does? I don't know.
This isn’t the time for me to be arrogant. I should stop kidding myself. I should stop pretending. I’m not all that strong.
Video games and religion have a pretty rocky history together, but where most see discord, one developer sees the light.
B&H Publishing Group has announced plans to release "Bible Navigator X" for the Xbox 360 in early December. Based on the Holman Christian Standard Bible, the downloadable tome will feature both the Old and New Testaments in addition to helpful search tools. Aaron Linne, B&H Publishing Group's executive producer of digital marketing, explained the unlikely pairing.
"This application will bring the Bible into people's living rooms and onto their televisions in a completely new and innovative way," he said in a press release. "The Xbox isn't just secular entertainment anymore. We can use technology that other people developed to study Scriptures through a new medium. Some people are just more comfortable with a controller in their hands than a book."
Oddly, the 360 version of The Good Book will be found in the 'Indie Games' section -- because what's more indie than Christianity? -- and will run a cool 400 Microsoft Points, or about $5.
Mann, ever since uni ended I've been pretty lazy to blog. But when I do blog, they all end up going into the drafts folder, incomplete. Looking back at all the half-written posts, my train of thoughts is a big mess. Funny that I'm saying this now, but it's time to get organized. It's time to refocus.
Mentoring sessions. Yes, I've mention this before but never really went into depth about it. So today I'll be sharing about "Shockwave" the movement started by the dynamic-duo, Homer and Vivienne, which I believe has impacted and challenged those who attended.
When Krystal first emailed about this mentoring thing, I wasn't really clear about it or how it would run. All I knew was that it's about mentoring (very duhh I know) and I that could use this. Use it for what? At that time, only for myself. I mean it's always good to have head knowledge about certain things, yea?
And so I stuck to it. Never missing a single session even at the expense of sleep and fun.
The materials which were taught were really practical and hands-on but were balance out with definitions, commandments and the likes. For example, qualities of a mentor, the different kinds of mentors and the purpose of mentoring.
The definition of mentoring, as given by Vivienne, is: A relational experience in which a person empowers another by giving them God-given resources.
Btw, the purpose of "Shockwave" is to build up mentors within a Christian community. So for those of you who think Christianity is a load of bull, please do bear with me.
I won't go into detail about the commandments and qualities cause if you wanna know, you can attend "Shockwave" next time! What I really want to talk about is what I've learnt and the experience that I've...experienced during the past 10 sessions.
Half-way through "Shockwave", we had the tables turned on us. Instead of just having Homer, Vivienne and Krystal facilitating the sessions, we had the opportunity to facilitate one session each, together with 2 other fellow mentees. This is what Homer dub "reverse mentoring". We weren't given anything specific to share about but because of that, we managed to learn more about one another. Our struggles, passion and journey thus far.
I shared about four things and I gave each one of them a title:
1) Past, present, future - my journey thus far 2) Corner of Memories - Pursuit of my true self 3) Non-existent love story - relationship conference 09 4) ~PEEP SHOW~ my relationship with God.
Initially, I planned to just share one or two of them but as I shared, I realized that all of them were linked together. So I ended up sharing about them all. Yes, I did share about this blog and for the other topics, if you interested, we could chat about them. Another time.
With this "reverse mentoring" it became more than just a mentoring session. It wasn't just a method used to train us how to mentor but with every sharing, there is always something new to be learn, new inspirations and new revelations.
Speaking of revelations, I had a few revealed to me during this time. Some which has been on the back of my mind but has yet to come to past. Some unexpected and demanding. Some intriguing and yet to be realized.
Simple revelations.
Which will be revealed next time! Look forward to part 2!
Stunned and caught a little off guard, my only response was, "Well, I'm not sad."
Most of the time happiness is something which is determine by the circumstances in our life at that certain moment.
But what would it be like to be happy just because? Hmm that sentence structure is a little off but what would it be like to be genuinely happy just because........you're happy.
Think. Think. Think.
Well, I'm pretty happy when I'm breakdancing or when I'm having a happy meal but that's influenced by "the circumstances of life". Isn't it?
Think. Think. Think.
This kind of deep thinking is too much for me to handle (and it's making me hungry). Lets just get back to the heart of the question.
"Julian. Are you happy?"
Wait minute. Why would she ask me such a question all of a sudden? Did I look pissed off, sad or something? It's probably just my normal face anyways.
Think. Think. Think.
Ok, that's enough thinking for one night. Back to the question.
Read this post with a steady pace and with the music. If timed carefully, you will finish reading everything by the time the music ends.
Ok, you can hit play now.
Father God. You who are so awesome and powerful. I come before you today, humbled before your presence. Free me Lord, of my anxieties and worries. Allow me to come before you whole-heartedly, in a child-like manner. Hungry and thirsty for you once again. Let me not be blinded by my own flesh but allow my spiritual eyes and ears to see and hear you. To worship you to the fullest without holding back. Forgive me for my sins. I surrender my anger and bitterness to you.
This week has been the most annoying one I had in a long time. The thing that really breaks my heart and pisses me off the most is when family fights. I fought with my brother. I hate it. What am I to do? He suffers from the older brother syndrome ("I know everything else better than you plus you're an idiot"). I suffer from younger brother syndrome (rebellious). *sigh* The worst kind of combination if I ever see one. I don't know what to do about this God. I can only surrender this to you. I have trouble making peace with myself what more with others. With you God, I am strong. So why do I feel so weak? I'm stuck again. I'm getting a little tired. A little lazy. Damn. I am gonna go down like this? Ceh! weak.
Come on Jules! You're stronger than that. You know that. You have so much ahead of you. You are flowing with so many brilliant thoughts and ideas about the future. Fun, life-bringing, awesome ideas. They may be challenging but you know you can do it. I can do it. There will definitely be change. There will always be change. By now I should be used to it. I take pride in my ability to adapt to change. Tough? Yes. But I will not be disheartened, discouraged. I'm gonna go strong. Stronger than ever before. God I need you. And I'm gonna need you more and more. Train me Lord. Discipline me Lord. Help me reach my fullest potential. I know that through you it's possible. Even in the dark and troubled times. That is why I'm still singing songs of joy and praise. Thank you God. Thank you God. I love you.
It's all about holding hands, kissing and getting hot and heavy.
At least, that's how it's portrait in Hollywood movies and the likes.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (NIV) begs to differ.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Every time I read this chapter (not that I read it a lot), I'll go, "impossible."
This is literally God-like standards unachievable by human. BUT Jesus proved that it is possible. You may argue that he's Godsend or just a fictional character but it wouldn't be half-bad following his example, yea?
My love story is equivalent to the love in a game of tennis. Zero. Nil.
I've always thought of myself as a person proud of his status.
Single.
"I don't need another woman in my life. Having two to deal with is already bad enough!"
Ahhh....sweet not-so-distant thoughts. Guess I've grown out of that.
It's nice isn't it? Being in a relationship. Having someone to laugh with. To share with. To fight with. To venture with. Alas, as nice as it would be to have a partner, the time has yet to come. Why? I have many reasons actually:
1) I've long decided to trust in God's timing. Which leads to number 2. 2) I believe that God will provide without the need for me to lift a finger. 3) Can't be bother (refer to number 2). 4) I'm still too young. Spiritually.
How does being spiritual-mature links to being in a relationship?
I don't know. Dammit! I don't know.
I guess it just wouldn't sit right with me. and God. Right now I am still going through a period of growth and self-discovery. I'm guessing being in a relationship would just screw things up. But when the time comes, I pray to be ready.
Ready to fight and defend what's important to me. Ready to make sacrifices. Ready to endure the many hardships and heartbreaks. Ready to love.
Love is not a game played by kids but grown ups. MEN.
May I be a real MAN by then.
As beautiful as the love between boyfriend and girlfriend / husband and wife may be, I still think that Jesus' love for us is the ultimate.
We curse him, we mock him, we use his name in vain. Yet he still chose to forgive us, to die for us, to love us. Have you ever wrong someone so badly but was forgiven not because of anything else but love? Let me repeat that. Have you ever wrong someone so badly but was forgiven not because of anything else but love?
Not because you apologised. "Aiya, he said sorry already so nevermind la!"
Not because of that nice gift you bought for her. "Aiya, he spend so much money to buy this. I'm sure he's sorry lorr!"
Not for the sake of your friendship. "Aiya, we friend so long already. Funny after wards if we're not friends anymore bahhh."
Not even because, "I'm your parent. Therefore, I'm oblige to forgive you." (at least, that's how I think some parents would think.)
But because of love.
Whoa.
Whoa! That's something else isn't it?
Dare I say, I want to love like that. I want to love like Jesus. Now I just feel sad cause I know that's not possible. HA! I just contradicted myself right there and then. Anyways, if there's someone we're striving to be, why not Jesus?
It's a high calling. A very high calling. But teach me to love like you do. To love my family and friends. Even those whom I'm not fond of and even those who irritates me.
Teach me to love like you do. AMEN!~
Well, that's my love matter and this is me signing off says, "Love matters!".
~ faith, hope and love; the greatest of these is love ~
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The past week was "rest" week. Stayed at home and rediscovered the joy of watching anime. I love those comedy ones. Always gives me a good laugh. Could anyone recommend me any good comedy shows?
Been wanting to shop for some b-boy clothing and a proper beanie. With my head shaved, I think a beanie would sit pretty nicely now. After watching a friend's performance last Saturday, I'm feeling rather pumped. Gonna practice more and maybe even get the windmill down by the end of this hols.
Mentoring sessions came to a close on Saturday. It's been an amazing 10 sessions and now it's time for me get things rolling. This is a pretty big "rock" for me, so it's definitely gonna take some time before I get it to roll. I've got a gut feeling this is something I'll be working on for the coming months or years. I won't be able to mentor anyone if I'm not capable of taking care of myself first.
The trial run for Project Clockwise has been entertaining to say the least. It's good to see that my drumming skills is still mada mada dane and capable of generating remarks such as, "What were you thinking!". This means that I suck and I can only get better from here on out. Our last session will be on tonight but I'm definitely looking forward to it again next year.
This week, I'm gonna be a little more productive. Gonna go job-hunting. Do some shopping. Maybe a little cooking. And wrap up the October Issue! I'm way behind schedule but I think I can get it done by the end of the week. There's a whole list of other things I wanna do but there's no rush. It's gonna be a long holiday, so I can afford to take it easy.
That practically sums up what's been happening for me.
Wooo, last week of uni for most peeps. Have fun! Uni rocks ma socks!
It amazing how fast I was able to overcome this issue that's been bugging for months. With just one conversation, it's gone. Amazing. Simply amazing. Thanks, Chris. I thought that I was doing you a favor but you ended up doing me a favor. So, thank you.
You're probably lost and a little confused about what's happening but that's alright. It's for me to know and only me to know. Ha! Talk about a complete 180 within a span of.......less than a day!
Ok, I guess I got some clearing up to do. It's a girl problem. Technical, it WAS a girl problem. (No no. Nothing wrong with the girl. It's just me.) And I think the problem resolved itself within me. You could say I faced it unknowingly and suddenly chains are broken and hearts are transformed. I guess I've finally come in terms with the situation that I'm in.
Amazing. It feels like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I wonder. Is this one of those temporary highs? Nahh, couldn't been. But we'll see.
Sorry guys, what I posted earlier is now void. At least around 70% of it.
BUT
I'm a guy with lots of issues. So, still be anticipating some big thoughts, questions and self-discovery, just without the emo-ness attached.
So much for "materializes into coherent words". Give me a day or two. I'll try to clear things up by then.
With the 'holidays' here, I think I finally have the head space to just sit down and blog about the things that's been bogging me. I've been trying to do this for the past couple of weeks to no valid. But with no more schoolwork pestering me, I think I can do this.
I always have to remind myself what the purpose of this blog is:
This blog was created with the purpose of sharing my life's journey, to document my 'profound-moments' and as a place for me to express my interests and thoughts openly and truthfully. May this blog be one which marks my pursuit of my true self.
BUT
it's more than that.
I am the type of person who tends to keep his thoughts to himself. That is why I challenged myself this year to be more expressive, more honest and at the same time doing so with integrity. As I learn to share openly, I have discovered more about myself. Those thoughts and emotions which I am unable to describe in the heat of the moment, later materializes into coherent words in this digital space.
Truth to be told.
Lately, I haven't been honest with myself. I've been waving away thoughts and issues that's been coming up over and over again. Dismissing them as insignificant with the excuse of, "Oh, I can deal with it later." when the truth is, I'm afraid to face it.
Afraid of failure. Afraid of judgment and isolation. Afraid that I'm not strong enough to deal with it. Afraid to even talk about it in this space that I've created.
Pathetic.
As much as I want this to be a fun blog, there isn't much fun now is there? Are you guys willing to bear with me? As I lay everything (almost everything) down before you. Ripping off the many masks I wear. Sealing off the many personae I assume. Wiping off that fake annoying smile which keeps creeping up my cheeks. Are you guys willing to bear witness to this? To shoulder the same burdens I do? Not that I could say or do anything to make you.
You may be wondering why I'm doing all this. I'm not too sure either.
But all I know right now, is that if I don't, these problems are gonna eat me inside out. It's gonna stop me right in my tracks and whatever progress that I've made so far will be for nothing. It's about time I set things right with myself.
This is me guys. This is me as you are only able to see here. This is me facing myself.
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With the end of the year approaching faster than a speeding granny, I reckon everyone's feeling the pressure. There's a cloud hanging over everyone's head.
A cloud of worries. A cloud of uncertainties. A cloud of confusion. A cloud.
It's such a depressing state and the weather isn't helping at all. Fortunately, the weather seems to be getting better. Unless the forecast is tricking me. Melbourne's weather is as unpredictable as a slow moving grandpa.
I reckon most of us needs a break. To just stop what ever that we're doing. Step back. Take a minute to recompose ourselves. Before jumping back into madness.
Well, since you guys are already here, why not take a five minute breather. Watch the video or let the music soothe your soul.
Forget about your Chinese oral. Forget about your Spanish Exam. Forget about your worries and your strife. Forget.
It's times like these that I feel most thankful. Thankful that I have God.
A God who provides. A God who makes a way. A God who's there. A God.
Funny. I tend to blog at the most busiest of times. Guess I prefer blogging compared to doing my assignments.
Cherish the days you have friends, for yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present."
And they say you learn nothing from cartoons. hmph.
Went swimming with the dolphins last Friday. I wouldn't exactly call it "swimming with the dolphins" but more like "holding-onto-a-rope-for-your-dear-life-in-the-freezing-cold-ocean-water-as-you-look-around-spastically-for-that-big-blue-fish". Besides dolphins, we swam with seals too. Like "swimming with the dolphins" I wouldn't exactly call it "swimming with the seals" but "floating-around-in-the-middle-of-the-ocean-as-the-salted-fish-smelling-animal-swims-around-us".
Regardless of what I've just said, I had fun. Though I doubt the same can be said for Ian. Motion sickness is his kryptonite.
On Saturday was the mooncake festival. Bought latterns and mooncakes from chinatown. Discovered that they sold snowskin mooncakes in Melbourne. Sweet. Celebrated with a Western-Asian fusion dinner with Kel, Ann and Ian in the comfort of our apartment. Hung latterns outside the balcony cause we got a little too cozy watching tv, eating mooncakes and drinking tea (was suppose to go latterning at a park).
Wii-ed at Grace's yesterday. Played Raving Rabbids and Super Smash Bros Brawl. 100 vs games! A few hundred more to unlock every single character. Who knew playing for 5 hours straight could give you a killer headache. I love videogames.
And it's Monday! Minus the Lab exam which is scheduled on the 6th of November, I have two more weeks of uni till Year 1 is officially over. It's gonna be a very busy two weeks with tests to study for and datelines to meet. But after that, it's the holidays. Let's go for goal babeh!
Since Ninja's taking a vacation, I'll be in charge of Corner of Memories' music for the next couple of weeks. Mann that guy runs off like nobody's business. Oh wells. Expect some J-pop and some boom boom pow!
I don't get it. Lately, I've been feeling real shy whenever I'm around this certain someone. Besides shyness, I feel fear as well. Shyness and fear. That's pretty nor-
Ninja:That's not normal at all. Julian:Don't interrupt me dammit!
Ok, it's not that normal but still, she scares the crap out of me.
Ninja:Chicken-wuss. Julian:Yea, whatever.
Been busy with the relationship conference and the final session's gonna be on tomorrow. So far it's been pretty interesting and I've learnt a lot of new stuff. But I won't be sharing about it now. Not today.
Watched a documentary at Physical Geography lecture today. It was amazing. Just watching it makes me feel smaller than I already am. It reminded me of how powerful and artistic God is. What geologists believe took millions of years to form, God created within a week.
The documentary's called EARTH: The Power of the Planet.
Now I feel like going to Iceland. Hot springs! Hot springs!
The weather's been raining and raining all week. So much for hot spring. Gloomy for us city kids but good for the farmers. Well look at the bright-side.
I had a great time on Saturday night helping out at the Juwita concert. Since we ran out of tickets, we resorted to tearing creating more tickets out of the few flyers we had. After realization of how dodgy it looked, we just decided to stamp the audiences' hands. Funny how Mr. Loo was generating graphs, diagrams and statistical data using Excel for his phone usage errr i mean ticket sales. Yes, ticket sales. He was playing some online game too.
Opening for Singapore-Indonesian Malaysia based singer/songwriter, Juwita was Singapore-New Zealander Sydney based singer/songwriter, Alarice Thio. (That's just confusing.) Accompanying them was a 37-piece orchestra conducted by Zach Tay, "Orchestre Nouveau".
Alarice Thio
Didn't get the chance to see Alarice perform that night but managed to catch her performing an acoustic set the night before together with Chris, Ann and Juwita at Cafe Crema. Juwita and Alarice are both amazing singers. (So are Chris and Ann.) Also had the opportunity to hear Juwita's story in church on Sunday. Makes me feel proud to be Malaysian.
I have a thing for orchestras. I love listening to orchestral music. Must have been from all the videogames I've played eg. Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Metal Gear Solid. To pay $15 to watch Juwita perform with Orchestre Nouveau was totally worthy it. Which reminds me.
London Philharmonic Orchestra
is coming to Australia next month! Only problem is the tickets don't come cheap. One ticket can buy you 70 bowls of kolo mee. And that's before converting it to Malaysian dollars, 200 bowls of kolo mee. BUT, that's only if you want the best seat in the house. The ticket prices range from $240.50 to $25.
"The London Philharmonic Orchestra has long been recognised as one of the best ensembles in the world, an assertion borne out by continued acclaim from audiences and critics alike."
As much as I want to go, I probably won't. Lately, I've been caught up into too many events and activities. I should slow down and save some money while I'm at it. Relationship Conference's on this week and exam timetable's comes out today. Joy.
Since, everyone else is on holidays, it feels like I'm on holidays too. Not good. Time to be productive.
Goodnight.
~ God put our eyes in the front so that we will look forward ~