So...

I realised that I didn't keep any of the new year resolutions which I've made this year.

Clara C @ Arrow on Swanston, 3rd DEC 2011.

I may have kept number 3, but that's about it. Even so, I enjoy making new year resolutions. It gives me something to work, strive towards and it also gives me a false sense of discipline. Just being honest. This year, I was intentional with wanting to engage, embrace, empower and to live a Lifhe which is Love Inspired, Faith and Hope Empowered. Just like that little sentence in the "About Me" column.

2011. Stop trying, start living!

So... have I been able to live Lifhe? I would like to believe so. I've taken some risks this year, done some extraordinary things, had amazing conversations with equally amazing people. If there's one thing I've learnt this year is that, it's ok not to have everything figured out. Like a friend said before, "We never have it all figured out, we just get shown a bit then run towards that. Steward as best we can what we know". 

But I've also been constantly challenged by God, struggling with the idea that He's all I need. That His grace is sufficient for us, that He is bigger than our problems, that He is more important than our selfish ambitions and desires. Not easy to do. But thank you for being so patient with me God. Continue to guide and teach me. 

I'm not really sure what the take home message from this post is (cause I'm just blabbering) but I just wanna thank God for another new year. A fresh start, a new beginning and maybe more new year resolutions which will mostly be broken.

2012. Sounds fun. 

~ Happy New Year! ~

VISIBER

It's Christmas eve and I rather be blogging about merrier stuff but... I've got nothing. This is just a follow-up on the previous post. 

Turns out this practice isn't Feng Shui but VISIBER. Apparently, it's been around for a while now and it's actually quite a big business. For those who are interested to find out more about VISIBER (and since I'm lazy to blog about it), you can visit their blog here:

http://visiber-malaysia.blogspot.com/

Wishing everyone an enjoyable Christmas Eve!

~ it's funny how VISIBER rhymes with BIEBER ~

Forever Alone

I don't usually blog when I'm back home but this is too interesting for me not to share. So to my loyal readers, who've been coming back daily to see what Julian's been up to, rejoice!

Today, mum brought me to meet a Feng Shui consultant (let's call her that for the lack of a better term). Being curious and interested to see why mum is so hooked on this belief, I decided to go with it. Don't worry, there wasn't any chanting, voodoo dolls or that sorta hoo-ha. Just a friendly chat with an ordinary woman who believes in "frequencies" or fate through the arrangement of numbers. Not sure if that made sense... moving on.

The way she does her readings is through numbers, or most specifically, your date of birth. Each number, ranging from 1-9, is linked to an element (eg. fire, wood) and represents a certain quality or characteristic:

1 = leadership
2 = communication
3 = action
4 = planning
5 = direction
6 = wisdom
7 = networking
8 = responsibility
9  = success.

Based on my date of birth, 01.08.1990, I have good leadership skills, am emotional and bound for success. However, I lack the qualities from numbers 2 to 7. I am also closely aligned to the element, metal (number 1) which, unfortunately means, "I will lead a life of hardship and may experience sudden death". I kid not. (And I find it ridiculous how she says it in a "as-a-matter-of-fact" tone.)

Now imagine yourself as a mother and someone tells you, "Your son is going to die an expected death". How would you feel? Being a worried mom, you would of course proceed to ask, "How can I prevent this?" Good question. A pendant of gold and silver is what you seek. As the legend foretold, this pendant has the power to fight against the evils of one's negative "frequencies". But of course, this pendant will only work if you believe in it. And let's not forget to mention, has a price tag of RM8800 (or you could opt for the cheaper one which has the same magnitude of power for only RM1500).

I like to believe that there's a reason for everything. A reason why I didn't get a job in Melbourne. Maybe it's more important for me to spend time back home with my folks. To communicate and understand their hearts. Let this not be a wasted opportunity to speak love and hope into their lives. I've let more than enough chances slipped by before. And who knows, I may not get another chance.

On a lighter note, apparently I'm also a perfectionist and I have high standards when it comes to girls. And because of that, I'm prone to divorces and may end up being a monk or priest. In other words, I'll be forever alone.


~ not poking fun at participants of feng shui or anything, but placing your hopes and believes on a piece of metal is clearly idolatry. ~

BRB

All packed and ready to go. Not too sure what to expect this time 'round, but it'll be good to spend some time back home. 3 months is plenty. It's been a BIG year, thus far, with plenty of high and low points. This break will be a good time for me to freshen up and restart. Yea, that'll be nice. 

Take care Melbourne. Brb.