KICK-ASS time!

Only 7 more hours to GO the extra mile but I can't help but just blog right now. I still can't believe that I'm actually gonna do it. Wow 50km! That's pretty long isn't it? haha too late to back out now. I gonna do this!

For the kids in India.
For those supporting.
For those sponsoring.
And for myself.

This entire month of April, I've been running physically and metaphorically. And tomorrow's gonna be the biggest run of my life. After tomorrow, I'm gonna stop running(metaphorically). Running from my fear, my insecurity and my problems.

In a way, this run is kinda symbolic to me. When I made the decision to run during Easter Camp, it wasn't a decision made on the spur of the moment. Maybe it was me trying to prove something, accomplish something hmmmm I'm not sure. But after this run, things are gonna be different. How do I know that? It's a six sense which I have. Premonition, clairvoyance whatever you wanna call it. Something's gonna change.

Enough talking, more sleeping. DAYAKS are gonna kick-ass! YA-HA!!




























~ carb-loaded & psyched. let's mosey! ~

Back to Basics

For the past few months I've been wrestling with a very ugly issue. Instead of confronting it, I've chose to avoid it. But I know that it's eating me inside and it's making me sick.

Have you ever been hit where it hurts you the most? I was and well, it still hurts. And what I'm left with is hatred and sadness. It sickens me. Why? Because this hatred is harbored towards a brother. My brother.

It's stupid how it all started. I didn't mean any harm but then suddenly bam! His words pierced me right where it hurts. And since that day, the wound is still bleeding. Shit. I hate this shit. I'm a total mess.

"We hate people because they are the one that expose the part of us that we hate. " - Ps Tim 19/4/2010

Yea, it hurts me when people expose my weaknesses or bring up my past failures. I hate it. I don't need you to remind me about it. I know very well where I lack and the things I did. So what if I'll never amount to the things you did? Just shut up. Cause I don't care.

But I actually do care. You think a day haven't gone by without me thinking "what if" and "I should have". I've regretted and I still do. So just back off. It's been a while since I've come so close to cursing out loud. But I won't. Not this time.

This is probably the most honest I've been with myself. sighhhh what now? Live life as it was knowing that I'm broken inside? I don't know. I'm just tried of pretending. Pretending that everything's alright. Why can't I be more vulnerable? Pride. Fear.

Hmmm not sure why, but I feel a little better now. I guess I've been keeping all this emotions and feelings bottled up inside to the point where it was suffocating me. But now, it's all out. So to whoever's here, thanks for listening/reading......ahaha now I just feel embarrassed.

I'm going back to the basics. I'm gonna use this blog the way it was purposefully created to be. An honest one.

One which is not influenced by the thoughts of others,
One which expresses my feelings truthfully,
One which does not contradict myself,
One with integrity.

I'm gonna stop crying now. God has probably collected enough tears to generate a hydropower plant.

So smile.....



cause this ad is just hilarious =)


~ 100th post ~

We Are Once In A Lifetime

Waiting in the line as excited as I could be. The doors open. Finally. I've forsaken dinner for this moment. The only thing between me and a night of heart-pumping, bass-hitting, and alternative-rocking genius is a mean-looking bouncer.

As I approached the doors, the bouncer leaned forward. Towering over my feeble self. All this while, remaining silent. But when he spoke, he shattered all hopes of the promised night of heart-pumping, bass-hitting, and alternative-rocking genius.

"Where's you ID, mate?"

It's times like this I wonder why our student IDs doesn't show our birth dates. To cut a short story even shorter, I ran all the way back to my place (met Ian halfway who was running late for the concert), grabbed my passport and trammed back down to the bar.

And made it in time for the show.

Opening the show was local indie band, Dead Actors Club.

















The vocals/back-up vocals were good. The bassist was hot. The guitarist looks like a friend of mine from high school. The keyboardist had a nice hairband. The drummer hits too loud.

Haha I'm probably not doing the band justice by giving such remarks. So check 'em out on the myspace link above.

The band that would be performing next has been around since 1996. I remember the time when I would jam their songs together with my friends back home. Also whenever MTV plays their music, I would put the remote down and be awe by their musicality. Even now I remember the times me and my friends would try and attempt to imitate the sweet pipes of Jon Foreman, embarrassing ourselves. Good thing it's easier to imitate the sound of the guitars on "Meant to Live".

This band is none other than Switchfoot.
















Touring for their seventh album, Switchfoot is still going on strong!

Hello Hurricane
You're not enough
Hello Hurricane
You can't silence my love

Here's what the critics who attended had to say:

"SWITCH FOOT WAS... EPIC! they still remain so passionate and sincere about their music and songs even after so many years. AWESOME!!!" - ann boo

"when i listen to switchfoot, I weep." - anonymous

"woah switchfoot melbourne! best concert i've ever been to. no joke. that was so intense."- chris law

"SO INCREDIBLY AWESOME, I had this high for ages man, then I was so sad when it was gone haha" - gregory tan

"i can't sleep!!! hello hurricane is still ringing in my head!" - ian lau

I totally loved the way Jon Foreman interacted with the audience. He's such a fun and loving dude. I also got to see Chad Butler play both an acoustic and electronic drum kit at the same time. That's probably one of the coolest thing ever. Besides Hello Hurricane, they performed songs from their older albums too. I had the honour of listening to the following live:

1. Stars
2. Oh! Gravity
3. Twenty-four
4. This is your life
5. Meant to Live
6. Dare you to Move

After the concert, my respect for Switchfoot increased by tenfold. It's amazing how they are able to remain so humble and passionate whilst being in an industry which strives on scandals and idolatry. Thank God for Switchfoot! May they continue spreading the love with their music.

Music is truly a very powerful medium. I feel inspired. As a musician, I want to be able to inspire others as well.

"let's all grow up like them." - charles j. tan

















Yea, that'll be awesome!


~ I've made a mess of me, I wanna get back the rest of me ~

Run

I've been running through this entire week. Running to school. Running back home. Running the midnight oil. Running. It's been such a long time since I've been so exhausted not just physically but mentally as well. Today was just one of those day where everything didn't go as planned. But one thing I can always count on is that by the end of the day, everything's gonna be okay. And true enough, everything's okay =)

Thank God It's Friday!!


~ a brief moment of rest ~

Of Late & Later

First off a few pictures from Easter Camp because one day Facebook's gonna crash & we're gonna lose all of our precious memories.....maybe I shouldn't have jinx it. Anyways...

Penguin United
















Warcry. Squawk!




























Baby Eammon rocking his elastic straps!



















How could you not have jump-shots from camp?





















Or group shots.






















plus fish & chups on the side.

Didn't take any of these photos so credits goes to Kathryn, Winston, Aaron Lim and Phil. Thanks guys!

It's only been a week since then but it felt like a month ago. I never knew that April could be such a busy month.

Ok, let's see what's on my schedule:

17th April - Arrow's Flea Market
22nd April - Switchfoot
24th April - Bday with Homies(housechurch)

Fast forward to next month:

1st of May - GO the Extra Mile (50km)
3rd of May - John Mayer

























Plus Neighbourhood Night, Housechurch, Flare Dance and whatever adventures I may have in between - April's is gonna be one heck of a month.

My worries? Simple, my 2 assignments due at the end of this week and the run/walk/trek which is less than 20 days away. Care to sponsor me?

As much as I love to talk about my worries and feelings, that's gonna have to wait. For those of you starting uni, welcome back =) for those of you still on holidays, don't get too bored. Stay warm and keep safe. Winter's just around the corner.


~ Ian bought wrong size underwear ahaha ~

No Regrets Mun

This year's Easter camp was well, awesome. Not sure how to explain it but the past 3 days to me were just so real. Like it was meant to be. This is what life is about. Seeking God, worship, sharing and celebrating life.

What I love and at the same time feel annoyed about God is that He loves revealing things to me little by little. This time He revealed my gift of tongues. Honestly, I've been wanting to know how to speak in tongues for a long time now. What I didn't know was that I already had it in me. All I had to do was say, "GIVE IT TO ME!" (not out loud of course).

I always thought that when the day came that I was able to speak in tongues, it would be a teary epiphany. Surprise surprise. No tears. No sad emo music. No drama. Just a, "Oh, hey I'm speaking in tongues. This sounds weird." haha no joke but yea, thanks God. Allow the Holy Spirit to continue leading me as I worship you.





















If there is one thing that I took away from this camp was "To seize the moment!" It's funny how during the drive down to Philip Island, Ps Tim talked about doing the things we want to do while we're still young because before we know it, we'll be old, married and with kids (hopefully). And not just Ps Tim, Winston and the 2 guest speakers said the same thing!

Seizing the moment huh?

Looking back, there are times when I wish I could have done this and that. Regret? Maybe. Disappointment? Yea. And right now there are things that I keep telling myself, "I can do it next time." But will there be a next time? I guess it would really suck not being able to do what you want to do before it's too late.

Seizing the moment huh?

What's holding me back? What's holding you back? Doubt. Fear. Pride. Self-consciousness. I can relate to all that but are they reason enough to hold us back? One prayer that I prayed during this camp was, "To let go, if that is God's will."

If fear is holding me back, I'll let it go.
If uncertainty is holding me back, I'll let it go.
If unforgiveness is holding me back, I'll let it go.
If self-consciousness is holding me back, I'll let it go.

Even when I'm typing this down, there's doubt and fear but I'm gonna take this step of faith. No matter how little I understand, it's more than enough for me.

This is step number six. haha hmmm I've probably taken more than that so I'll stop counting.

I'm taking this step. I'm gonna walk the extra mile. I'm gonna GO the Extra Mile!












~ A real man never backs down from his word ~

So March Has Happened

Wow, it's been a month since I've been back in Melbourne and so much has happened. Where should I start? Where should I start.

Second year of uni. Meh. Most of my assignments are due after Easter break so it's definitely gonna be a busy period. So far so good.

Joined a new housechurch this year. It's always great meeting new people and getting to know others within the community. Being in a female-dominant cell group is a privilege. One that I will not abuse. Really looking forward to journeying with these guys. Good things are definitely gonna happen!

Salsa classes on Wednesday together with Doreen and the team which mainly consist of Arrow students. I believe what Life* Expedition is doing for the Arrow kids is awesome. I too am privilege to be a part of this venture. Besides, I get to mingle and dance like a madman. Speaking of dance, I finally joined Melbourne Uni's Flare Dance. Looking forward to being part of this team and maybe take part in it's production!

Birthdays! I love birthdays. There's always something about it that makes me happy. So far we've celebrated Grace's, Aaron's, and Greg's birthday plus Winston's which I chose not to attend. Afterall, it's just Wince.

Last year Krystal talked to me about getting a mentor to guide me in spiritual matters and after time spent praying she recommended Aun. And yea, I've been a mentee to Aun for a month now. It's great talking to Aun. Every time I get so caught up in doing things by myself, Aun always reminds me how what I'm doing always relates to God or how God is able to work from what I do. It's great having someone whom I can chat with. Nothing else but really just chat. Thanks, Aun!

For the past three weeks, I've been working together with the Life* TV crew promoting Easter Camp. And we have finally reaped the fruits of our labour. This year there was an overwhelming response for Easter Camp. I might be exaggerating but it was nevertheless a positive response. Easter Camp's gonna be at Philip Island and it's gonna be AWESOME! Because of the fellowship, location, activities and that I'll be playing the drums for all the sessions.

And finally, The Macca's Incident!




































































Just because Winston asked me to put the pictures up.


~ Happy Easter everyone! ~