~ Fitting isn't it? Ending with the song that started it all. ~
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Part 2 - Growing Up
Before you know it, a year has gone by. So much has happened over these past couple of months it's hard to believe that 2009 is coming to an end. And pretty quickly too.
This year has been a year of discovering for me. I've been trying to put the pieces together. Trying to understand who I really was and maybe find my "identity". That's why I challenged myself to face myself. To be more open and to be more honest towards my own feelings.
I've also been trying to understand this relationship I have with a God and how that fits in with where I am right now. It's hard enough trying to understand relationships between family and friends. But put God into the picture, it's like opening up a whole new can of worms.
So, how I am going with all of that?
Firstly, I'm no longer worry about trying to find my identity. Worrying about the kind of people I should associate with, my hairstyle, my taste in music and whether certain things makes me feel sad or happy. Instead, I think I've learnt to love myself.
To accept my flaws.
To forgive my shortcomings.
To respect my life.
To love myself.
As disturbing as it sounds, that was the only way I was able to put it into words. Behaviour may change. So will appearance and even beliefs. And what I'm left with is character. Character drives ones behaviour which in turn affects appearance. Beliefs are then portray through one's character. People may have weird behaviours, strange appearances and different beliefs but it's his/her character that define who they really are.
That's just my opinion but I guess "figuring out who I really am" is no longer an issue to me. Character is who I am. Character is my identity. And if that changes, let's hope that it's for the best. Therefore, I will protect my character.
May I be strong.
I may not have been open and honest with those around me but I definitely learnt to be more open and honest with myself. "May my openess and honesty expand beyond this blog," is what I would like to say, but I don't think I'm ready just yet. Guess I should take it one step at a time.
Baby steps. Baby steps.
I've yet to come close to understanding God, seeing the big picture, feeling the holy spirit and all that, but I think I learnt to trust in Him more. To not beat myself up so much because of sin. Having the faith to believe in something/someone intangible and even learning to let go of something important that I'm sooo grateful for. Ahhhh, God. You're really something aren't you?
Continue watching over me.
Finally. The million dollar question. Have I grown at all this year?
"Just a little," I guess.
Spiritual, mentally, emotionally and even physically.
Just a little.
Some questions have been answered. Some I reckon will never be. But it's all part of this journey of faith. Like I said, it's been a year of discovering not discovery. But I'm having fun.
The future of this blog? Well I haven't actually put much thought into it but I'm thinking.....blue. Who knows? We're just gonna have to wait and find out!
Thank you, to all of you who've shared this journey with me. Your presence has definitely made a difference in my life. For better or for worse, I'll leave that for you to decide. It's been a great year. You've been a great audience. Goodbye friends! Goodbye strangers! Goodbye stalkers! I wish you all well.
Tata! =)
~ .....for now ~
This year has been a year of discovering for me. I've been trying to put the pieces together. Trying to understand who I really was and maybe find my "identity". That's why I challenged myself to face myself. To be more open and to be more honest towards my own feelings.
I've also been trying to understand this relationship I have with a God and how that fits in with where I am right now. It's hard enough trying to understand relationships between family and friends. But put God into the picture, it's like opening up a whole new can of worms.
So, how I am going with all of that?
Firstly, I'm no longer worry about trying to find my identity. Worrying about the kind of people I should associate with, my hairstyle, my taste in music and whether certain things makes me feel sad or happy. Instead, I think I've learnt to love myself.
To accept my flaws.
To forgive my shortcomings.
To respect my life.
To love myself.
As disturbing as it sounds, that was the only way I was able to put it into words. Behaviour may change. So will appearance and even beliefs. And what I'm left with is character. Character drives ones behaviour which in turn affects appearance. Beliefs are then portray through one's character. People may have weird behaviours, strange appearances and different beliefs but it's his/her character that define who they really are.
That's just my opinion but I guess "figuring out who I really am" is no longer an issue to me. Character is who I am. Character is my identity. And if that changes, let's hope that it's for the best. Therefore, I will protect my character.
May I be strong.
I may not have been open and honest with those around me but I definitely learnt to be more open and honest with myself. "May my openess and honesty expand beyond this blog," is what I would like to say, but I don't think I'm ready just yet. Guess I should take it one step at a time.
Baby steps. Baby steps.
I've yet to come close to understanding God, seeing the big picture, feeling the holy spirit and all that, but I think I learnt to trust in Him more. To not beat myself up so much because of sin. Having the faith to believe in something/someone intangible and even learning to let go of something important that I'm sooo grateful for. Ahhhh, God. You're really something aren't you?
Continue watching over me.
Finally. The million dollar question. Have I grown at all this year?
"Just a little," I guess.
Spiritual, mentally, emotionally and even physically.
Just a little.
Some questions have been answered. Some I reckon will never be. But it's all part of this journey of faith. Like I said, it's been a year of discovering not discovery. But I'm having fun.
The future of this blog? Well I haven't actually put much thought into it but I'm thinking.....blue. Who knows? We're just gonna have to wait and find out!
Thank you, to all of you who've shared this journey with me. Your presence has definitely made a difference in my life. For better or for worse, I'll leave that for you to decide. It's been a great year. You've been a great audience. Goodbye friends! Goodbye strangers! Goodbye stalkers! I wish you all well.
Tata! =)
~ .....for now ~
Memories of 2009
Ahhhh.....2009. This year has been a good year. Hmmm maybe good is an understatement. This year have been probably the best year of my life thus far!! True story.
I totally enjoyed my first year in uni. My first year in Melbourne. My first concert. My first song. My first academic excellence. My first blog! And many others which might not be "firsts" but definitely blog worthy.
Without further ado,
1) Mr. A-Z concert!
2) Learnt to Breakdance.
3) Shared a song that God has given me. This year has definitely been a step of faith for me. (Will be covered in the next post.)
4) Fell in love with cookies.
5) 3HDs. Count them 1, 2, 3. Thanks for all the study times at Gloria Jeans!
6) Discovered the wonders of fish tofu.
7) Whenever I feel sad, I would stop feeling sad and have wicked wings instead. Wicked wings makes me awesome!
8) Went busking and earned $60 in one night.
9) Met a Boo.
10) Became a hobo for 40 hours.
11) Watching MasterChef on Nine.
12) Yellow was this year's colour.
13) DOTA!!!! A bunch of us actually bought memberships to this CC we frequent to.
14) Bought this cool Wii remote candy-dispenser!
15) Became an emo.
16) Eating ice-cream with my favourite people.
17) Spent a full semester with a faulty keyboard.
18) Turned Nineteen! Ahhhh, my final year as a teenager.
19) Bro's Graduation.
2009. It's been great but it's not over yet!
~ 2-in-1 special!! On to the next post! ~
I totally enjoyed my first year in uni. My first year in Melbourne. My first concert. My first song. My first academic excellence. My first blog! And many others which might not be "firsts" but definitely blog worthy.
Without further ado,
1) Mr. A-Z concert!
2) Learnt to Breakdance.
3) Shared a song that God has given me. This year has definitely been a step of faith for me. (Will be covered in the next post.)
4) Fell in love with cookies.
5) 3HDs. Count them 1, 2, 3. Thanks for all the study times at Gloria Jeans!
6) Discovered the wonders of fish tofu.
7) Whenever I feel sad, I would stop feeling sad and have wicked wings instead. Wicked wings makes me awesome!
8) Went busking and earned $60 in one night.
9) Met a Boo.
10) Became a hobo for 40 hours.
11) Watching MasterChef on Nine.
12) Yellow was this year's colour.
13) DOTA!!!! A bunch of us actually bought memberships to this CC we frequent to.
14) Bought this cool Wii remote candy-dispenser!
15) Became an emo.
16) Eating ice-cream with my favourite people.
17) Spent a full semester with a faulty keyboard.
18) Turned Nineteen! Ahhhh, my final year as a teenager.
19) Bro's Graduation.
2009. It's been great but it's not over yet!
~ 2-in-1 special!! On to the next post! ~
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
The Ego Has Landed
After 3 years 7 months and 9 days of waiting, Final Fantasy XIII is finally out......in Japan. It's so exciting that you have to say it twice. It's so exciting! Mann, can't wait for the English version or to get a PS3 for that matter. To celebrate, a bunch of random funny japanese videogame commercials.
Translation of the video above.
Teacher： "Though it is sudden, I will take a break tomorrow ."
Student： "Why will you take a break?"
Teacher: (I've waited for this time for three years)
I know how he feels.
And I saved the best for last. Love the Metal Gear Solid commercials!
~ pata pata pata pon! ~
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Lively Aren't We?
Ahhhhh slack. Too slack. Been meaning to start working on a couple of projects but unfortunately, I've been really occupied. Ceh. I probably shouldn't be watching too many J-dramas. But you know what? I don't even feel bad about at it all!! J-dramas are cool!! So don't judge me until you've watched them yourselves. Hmph!
Ok, besides fanboying at home, lets see what else I've been up to. Been catching up with a couple of dudes before they headed home eg. Winston, Chris, Greg and errr Winston....... yea I only got so many friends. Got a problem with that?
Congrats on graduating Greg!! I must say, you looked pretty good in your robe thingy. All the best for your future endeavours!
L-R: Myself, Greg, Chris
Last Friday, went over to Winston's place for steamboat and played weeeeeeee!~ I meant wii~ till the wee hours. Also taught him how to breakdance a bit. Haha there's something about imparting knowledge to someone else. When they are able to pull off a move or step, there's this sense of accomplishment. BUT! Mada mada dane Winston. You still got lots more to work on.
Keep working on your Indian Step and Six-step. These are moves you'll be doing for life! Remember to bounce with your Indian Step and remember to switch with your Six-step. It doesn't hurt to Six-step in the opposite direction. Same for your shoulder and baby freeze too. Both left and right sides. If you need bboy music, gimme a shout. Remember, it's a dance not gym class.
Went on a spontaneous trip to Dandenong with Leland, Jon Loo and Jeanette after church on Sunday.
Miss Marples, pic taken last year.
Couldn't get into Miss Marples so we went to Brother Jon's instead. I reckon Miss Marples scones are better but the apple pie at Brother Jon's was nice. After that, we hung out and played this random board game at Leland's.
Presenting.........
Killer Bunnies and the Quest for the Magic Carrot
It's a really random, humourous, board game if I may say. It's too hard to describe but basically, who ever has the "Magic Carrot" at the end of each round, wins. Oh, and this game involves a lot of luck.
8 more days left in Melbourne! Hope that I'll be able to get what ever it is that I want to do done before then. And that's it from me. How are you guys spending your holidays?
Ah, before I forget. Family's here in Melbourne.
~ Joy ~
Ok, besides fanboying at home, lets see what else I've been up to. Been catching up with a couple of dudes before they headed home eg. Winston, Chris, Greg and errr Winston....... yea I only got so many friends. Got a problem with that?
Congrats on graduating Greg!! I must say, you looked pretty good in your robe thingy. All the best for your future endeavours!
L-R: Myself, Greg, Chris
Last Friday, went over to Winston's place for steamboat and played weeeeeeee!~ I meant wii~ till the wee hours. Also taught him how to breakdance a bit. Haha there's something about imparting knowledge to someone else. When they are able to pull off a move or step, there's this sense of accomplishment. BUT! Mada mada dane Winston. You still got lots more to work on.
Keep working on your Indian Step and Six-step. These are moves you'll be doing for life! Remember to bounce with your Indian Step and remember to switch with your Six-step. It doesn't hurt to Six-step in the opposite direction. Same for your shoulder and baby freeze too. Both left and right sides. If you need bboy music, gimme a shout. Remember, it's a dance not gym class.
Went on a spontaneous trip to Dandenong with Leland, Jon Loo and Jeanette after church on Sunday.
Miss Marples, pic taken last year.
Couldn't get into Miss Marples so we went to Brother Jon's instead. I reckon Miss Marples scones are better but the apple pie at Brother Jon's was nice. After that, we hung out and played this random board game at Leland's.
Presenting.........
Killer Bunnies and the Quest for the Magic Carrot
It's a really random, humourous, board game if I may say. It's too hard to describe but basically, who ever has the "Magic Carrot" at the end of each round, wins. Oh, and this game involves a lot of luck.
8 more days left in Melbourne! Hope that I'll be able to get what ever it is that I want to do done before then. And that's it from me. How are you guys spending your holidays?
Ah, before I forget. Family's here in Melbourne.
~ Joy ~
Friday, December 11, 2009
It was a Dark and Stormy Night.....
Making it's way through the streets, a lone figure, frail and tiny, barely visible due to the sheer magnitude of rainfall, came to a stop. The wind had taken him by surprise. He struggled to maintain his balance as the wind came so suddenly. But as quickly as it came, it vanished only to appear again, unexpected. Like a lion pouncing upon an unsuspecting prey.
"What a drag," grunted the fellow as he planted his feet firmly to the ground, dragging them along.
A faint smile fell upon his lips at the realization of the pun that he just made. But it didn't last long. The wind blew it away. The warmth of his overcoat pale in comparison to coldness of the wind. But it was all that he had to shield himself from the elements.
"Well, as long as it keeps me dry," he thought to himself, optimistically.
Slowly but steadily he battled through the piercing raindrops and bone-chilling wind. Questioning the seasons ever so often. It was summer yet it was winter. Wet and cold. Not the warm and dry summer he was hoping for.
"It must be Global Warming," he mused, nodding in agreement.
However, he was a man on a mission. No wind nor rain would be able to hinder him. He had only one goal and one goal only. But to achieve it, he must move forward. Forward against the elements and towards the light. Yes, it was vague but he was able to make out the colours from the distance. Crimson red and shimmering white.
"So we meet again-" he exclaimed, "My Kentucky Fried Friend."
Since it was lonely eating alone, he decided to return home to comfort himself as well as his stomach. Talk about being anti-climatic, this brings us to the end of our tale of valor, hope, bad grammar, terrible use of tenses and poor sentence structure.
KON!~ ( because ending with "the end" is just cliche )
It's raining in Melbourne, I still love KFC and I may be a little bored. Just a little. But there should be enough Japanese dramas to sustain me through these times. Hmmm I might blog about it. Japanese dramas, that is.
~ I would still take 12 wicked wings over an ultimate burger meal ~
"What a drag," grunted the fellow as he planted his feet firmly to the ground, dragging them along.
A faint smile fell upon his lips at the realization of the pun that he just made. But it didn't last long. The wind blew it away. The warmth of his overcoat pale in comparison to coldness of the wind. But it was all that he had to shield himself from the elements.
"Well, as long as it keeps me dry," he thought to himself, optimistically.
Slowly but steadily he battled through the piercing raindrops and bone-chilling wind. Questioning the seasons ever so often. It was summer yet it was winter. Wet and cold. Not the warm and dry summer he was hoping for.
"It must be Global Warming," he mused, nodding in agreement.
However, he was a man on a mission. No wind nor rain would be able to hinder him. He had only one goal and one goal only. But to achieve it, he must move forward. Forward against the elements and towards the light. Yes, it was vague but he was able to make out the colours from the distance. Crimson red and shimmering white.
"So we meet again-" he exclaimed, "My Kentucky Fried Friend."
Since it was lonely eating alone, he decided to return home to comfort himself as well as his stomach. Talk about being anti-climatic, this brings us to the end of our tale of valor, hope, bad grammar, terrible use of tenses and poor sentence structure.
KON!~ ( because ending with "the end" is just cliche )
It's raining in Melbourne, I still love KFC and I may be a little bored. Just a little. But there should be enough Japanese dramas to sustain me through these times. Hmmm I might blog about it. Japanese dramas, that is.
~ I would still take 12 wicked wings over an ultimate burger meal ~
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Lorne with the Laws
Went on a road trip to Lorne last weekend together with the Laws. No, not my in-laws but Chris Law and family (mum & lil bro). It was a pretty nice get-away and change of pace. Definitely better than staying at home playing Dota! XD
Lorne, one of the towns along The Great Ocean Road.
One of the few wineries we stopped by.
Our drive up to Lorne was cloudy but luckily, it didn't rain. And we got to take in and enjoy the scenery! I've always been a fan of the beach and ocean. Smelling in that sea-water scent and listening to the crashing of the waves. Kinda makes me a romantic person, no? Haha of course not!
One of the lookout points along the coast.
Had lunch at Oakdene. Pretty cool place.
After dinner on Saturday, Chris and I stayed up watching old music videos for almost four hours. Straight. Oh mann, it was super nostalgic. From Backstreet Boys to Britney Spears, The Cranberries, ABBA and Macarena. Good times, good times.
Mantra Resort, home for the night.
Woohoo! I made an amazing discovery during this trip. Everyone knows that when you breathe in, you'll float on water, right? But guess what happens when you breathe out? You'll sink!! Bet you didn't know that one did you? Had fun sinking in the pool. Dug a hole in the beach the next day and that's about it.
Beach!!!!!!!
More photos can be viewed on facebook. Click on more photos.
The other one.
Hahaha did I get you? Never mind.
Thanks once again to the Laws for a great time!
My favourite shot from the entire trip!
I just realized that I only got a little bit over two weeks left in Melbourne. Sis is coming over next week and so is mum and dad. Woah, time sure flies. Doesn't really feel that long since I left home for Melbourne but it's been a while. Finally getting a little excited about going home since Melbourne getting kinda lonely. Well, lets enjoy the remaining time I have left in Melbourne, shall we?
Greetings from Melbourne wherever you guys are. Stay safe and always remember to brush your teeth before going to sleep. Peace.
~ hmmm I reckon everyone should have at least one song by Christina Aguilera in their playlist ~
Lorne, one of the towns along The Great Ocean Road.
One of the few wineries we stopped by.
Our drive up to Lorne was cloudy but luckily, it didn't rain. And we got to take in and enjoy the scenery! I've always been a fan of the beach and ocean. Smelling in that sea-water scent and listening to the crashing of the waves. Kinda makes me a romantic person, no? Haha of course not!
One of the lookout points along the coast.
Had lunch at Oakdene. Pretty cool place.
After dinner on Saturday, Chris and I stayed up watching old music videos for almost four hours. Straight. Oh mann, it was super nostalgic. From Backstreet Boys to Britney Spears, The Cranberries, ABBA and Macarena. Good times, good times.
Mantra Resort, home for the night.
Woohoo! I made an amazing discovery during this trip. Everyone knows that when you breathe in, you'll float on water, right? But guess what happens when you breathe out? You'll sink!! Bet you didn't know that one did you? Had fun sinking in the pool. Dug a hole in the beach the next day and that's about it.
Beach!!!!!!!
More photos can be viewed on facebook. Click on more photos.
The other one.
Hahaha did I get you? Never mind.
Thanks once again to the Laws for a great time!
My favourite shot from the entire trip!
I just realized that I only got a little bit over two weeks left in Melbourne. Sis is coming over next week and so is mum and dad. Woah, time sure flies. Doesn't really feel that long since I left home for Melbourne but it's been a while. Finally getting a little excited about going home since Melbourne getting kinda lonely. Well, lets enjoy the remaining time I have left in Melbourne, shall we?
Greetings from Melbourne wherever you guys are. Stay safe and always remember to brush your teeth before going to sleep. Peace.
~ hmmm I reckon everyone should have at least one song by Christina Aguilera in their playlist ~
Thursday, December 3, 2009
The Missy Project
Just finished reading "The Shack" and woahhh it's such an amazing story or testimony, if I may call it that. My head is still overload with too much information, most of them which I am yet to completely understand.
This story is about a man who met God in a shack. Literally.
Ok, I'm not really good at a writing book reviews so I won't attempt to do so now. And I wouldn't want to give the plot away either. But if that one-liner is able to perk your interest about this book,I must be a pretty darn good book reviewer you must most definitely read this book!
Whether you are Christian or not, this is one book I would recommend to everyone. This book may seem more to a fantastic side. But whether it's true or not, it's up to you to believe. I mean it's not everyday you read about someone meeting up with God face-to-face what more spending an entire weekend with Him.
The way that this book portrays God is no doubt very controversial, but manages to reveal a glimpse of God's nature which is not very present in our culture. Which is not that of a bearded old man and white for that matter. But 3 separate entities/persons (God, Jesus, Holy Spirit) and still one in unity, if that makes sense.
I really sympathize with Mack, the main character of the story, after all that he's been through. It's like you just want to give that dude a hug. But I'm glad that God intervene in his life. With that said, you could say I very much believe that his story is true no matter how unbelievable it seems.
The themes, topics and questions raised in this book are probably things that most of us struggle with and still question. And it is these that makes this book very real to me. I would call these questions more than themes because most of them were brought out during conversations.
Allow me to list down the questions that are discussed in this book:
1) Freedom
2) Limitations
3) Relationships ( Father, spirit, son / God & humans )
4) Creation
5) Knowledge of Good & Evil
6) Holy Spirit
7) Judgment
8) Church
9) Trusting in God
10) How God makes good out of Bad
11) Strongholds
12) Evil vs Love
13) Choices / Freewill
14) What Jesus accomplished by dying on the cross
15) Emotions
16) Relationship vs Rules
17) Purpose of the 10 commandments
18) God is a Verb vs Noun
19) Responsibilities / Expectations
20) Priorities
21) Forgiveness
Yup, there sure are lots of questions asked in this book but I might have missed some along the way. Looking at the list above, they are still so many things that I'm yet to fully comprehend. sigh. "Men! Such idiots sometimes." But with time, with years, with experience and with God, I may one day understand all of this more.
Any of the questions that you've been struggling with? Then this may just be the book for you. Be ready to be inspired, humoured and touched.
Visit the main website at:
~ Spoiler: the Holy Spirit is Asian! ~
This story is about a man who met God in a shack. Literally.
Ok, I'm not really good at a writing book reviews so I won't attempt to do so now. And I wouldn't want to give the plot away either. But if that one-liner is able to perk your interest about this book,
Whether you are Christian or not, this is one book I would recommend to everyone. This book may seem more to a fantastic side. But whether it's true or not, it's up to you to believe. I mean it's not everyday you read about someone meeting up with God face-to-face what more spending an entire weekend with Him.
The way that this book portrays God is no doubt very controversial, but manages to reveal a glimpse of God's nature which is not very present in our culture. Which is not that of a bearded old man and white for that matter. But 3 separate entities/persons (God, Jesus, Holy Spirit) and still one in unity, if that makes sense.
I really sympathize with Mack, the main character of the story, after all that he's been through. It's like you just want to give that dude a hug. But I'm glad that God intervene in his life. With that said, you could say I very much believe that his story is true no matter how unbelievable it seems.
The themes, topics and questions raised in this book are probably things that most of us struggle with and still question. And it is these that makes this book very real to me. I would call these questions more than themes because most of them were brought out during conversations.
Allow me to list down the questions that are discussed in this book:
1) Freedom
2) Limitations
3) Relationships ( Father, spirit, son / God & humans )
4) Creation
5) Knowledge of Good & Evil
6) Holy Spirit
7) Judgment
8) Church
9) Trusting in God
10) How God makes good out of Bad
11) Strongholds
12) Evil vs Love
13) Choices / Freewill
14) What Jesus accomplished by dying on the cross
15) Emotions
16) Relationship vs Rules
17) Purpose of the 10 commandments
18) God is a Verb vs Noun
19) Responsibilities / Expectations
20) Priorities
21) Forgiveness
Yup, there sure are lots of questions asked in this book but I might have missed some along the way. Looking at the list above, they are still so many things that I'm yet to fully comprehend. sigh. "Men! Such idiots sometimes." But with time, with years, with experience and with God, I may one day understand all of this more.
Any of the questions that you've been struggling with? Then this may just be the book for you. Be ready to be inspired, humoured and touched.
Visit the main website at:
~ Spoiler: the Holy Spirit is Asian! ~
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Obtained x2 Potions.......wait this isn't a game.
Welcome to Corner Of Memories' Special Edition Guide on
" How to make a Boo-X!! "
" How to make a Boo-X!! "
Materials:
Cardboard box x2 ( size is up to you but one must be small enough to fit into the other )
2mm box-board x2
3mm box-board x1 ( Boo-X's lid )
Door brackets
Equipment:
ruler
penknife
cutting mat
PVA glue
Super glue
Duct tape
Marker pens
What else?
Love, hard work, dedication, creativity, perseverance and loads of free time is a plus,
not forgetting an Ian.
Now you are ready to start making your Boo-X!!
Good luck!
What!?
You weren't expecting me to explain how step by step....
were you?
That's boring.
~ obtained x2 Smith's Chips, hp recovered ~
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