How're YOU~ doing?

And so another week has come to an end.

Hmmm it's mid-sem break but I'm occupied with loads of stuff, uni and non-uni related. Mainly non-uni stuff, so that's good. Was hoping to rest up and recover from a busy week but I guess I'll be having a productive week. Better than slacking off playing flashgames and watching anime.

Next Sunday, I'll be sharing a song I wrote with the Life* Expedition congregation. I reckon the band got it nailed down. My only worry is singing off-key. That would just spoil everything. I am living prove that drummers can't sing! Or maybe that's just me. But that's not important. What's important is my state of heart and how/what I want this song to communicate to the people. Humble me and empower me.

Also, our dance item will be on that Sunday! Oh, the excitement! Don't worry, I'm sure we'll get it down by then, I hope? Nahh, gotta be positive. We'll definitely get it down by then! Look forward to it and be awe by our prowess! wakakaka

Lately, my emotions been getting the better of me. Totally reminds me of an episode of "Two and a half men" where Charlie snapped after keeping his emotions bottled up for so long. It's been too long since I when into one of my infamous laughing fits that it left me tearing and choking.

Yes, "I choked on my own laughter". literally.

To think that I actually would after using that phrase to express sarcasm for all those years. Oh, the irony. sigh. totally ruin the cool facade I spent years perfecting. Good news is I can't possibly do more to further ruin my image.

Or can I?

Nahh I rather not.

Mann there are still some other stuff I wanna blog about but I guess they're all going into the drafts folder. Hopefully I'll get the chance to clear out that folder during this short break. I've got incomplete posts in there worth weeks and months old it's probably not relevant anymore. I might bring 'em back anyways. Who knows?

I'm sleepy, my ass hurts and I've got work to do.


Time for bed.


~ Selamat Hari Merdeka ke-46, kepada orang Sabah dan Sarawak! ~

Laughing Cookies

Who needs oreo when you can have






















and if you didn't find that funny,

have some cookies!

Laughing. Cookies.




























~ when emotions get the better of you ~

I'm Not In Love

After being homeless for 40 hours, I'm home.

Last weekend I spent 40 hours away for home. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but I guess having an emergency shelter and a friend for company make things much easier. It was cold and tiring. Nevertheless, an interesting experience. One I wouldn't mind doing again. Next time on the streets. Maybe.

Thanks to those of you who've sponsored me and for those of who haven't (lee, yu and chua) you've got till the end of September! woo~hoo

Yesterday, chris, ann, greg, devon, sarah and myself when to watch Anberlin.





















Notice how the ticket says under 18's only? But we still managed to sneaked in. Must have been my good looks heheh =P

Opening for Anberlin were Aussie band, Wherewolves






















and The Academy Is...






















And finally, the main event.





















Anberlin's presence on stage were pretty good. They were energetic, swinging their guitars around and moving much quicker than my camera's shutter speed. Didn't managed to get any better shots but that's ok.






















One thing I noticed about all three bands was that all their drummers were smashing the drums like nobody's business. Power mann but not good for the ears.

The highlight of the night was probably when The Academy Is performed "About A Girl" cause that was the only song I was familiar with. It was good that they did cause I was just about to doze off. I found their other songs boring. Anberlin's music was new to me but I enjoyed it and overall, it was a good concert.

And the award for "Best Picture of the Night" goes to

greg's dinner.


~ Relient K is gonna be mmhmm ~

Burn My Dread

What the heck have I gotten myself into. This weekend is definitely gonna be a real eye-popping, gut-wrenching, hair-pulling, toe-nail-biting experience.

But life is a journey and it's better doing it together. Right?

It's alright. I'm doing this for the kids. We're doing this for the kids!






















To those of you who've turned me down, it's not too late to donate!

https://famine.worldvision.com.au/famine.cgi?a=SPONSOR_&pn=29193035-2
My 40 Hour Famine Number is: 29193035-2

Don't be such a cheapskate dammit!

Oh btw, I'm joining Chris in his 'home' fast.

Pray for us.

If this doesn't kill me, mum will.


~ I have no regrets ~

Ah Chai's Chicken Rice.

Ingredients:

• 3 and 1/2 cups of rice (feeds 4-5)
• Whole chicken (chopped into pieces)
• cucumber
• garlic
• ginger
• spring onion
• salt & pepper
• soy sauce
• sesame oil
• butter

Preparation:

Chicken
1) Boil chicken together with salt and pepper for an hour.
2) Soak chicken in cold water after boiling.

Rice
1) Add garlic and ginger to the rice.
2) Use butter to give the rice it's yellow, glossy look.

3) Cook the rice in the chicken soup (excess soup can be served as a side).

Serving:

Chicken
1) Dry chicken with paper towel before plating up.
2) Arrange cucumber slices around the plate for a cool touch.
3) Drizzle soy sauce and sesame oil.
4) Top with spring onions before serving.






















Rice
1) Mold rice into desired shape using hands or you could use a bowl.

Ta-da!

And you are ready to eat!




























~ asian boys just wanna eat rice, yeaaaa ~

Many Merry Days

Ahhh it's been a while since I've done a reflective post. To just sit down and reflect upon the past few days and months even. There's always this warm fuzzy feeling I get when I meet up with friends whom I haven't seen or heard from for a long time. Yesterday I had the opportunity to catch up with a friend from Perth.

Charles came over to Melbourne for a work conference and extended his stay over the weekend for a mini-vacation. Exchanging stories and pleasantries over sushi, ramen and sashimi at J Cafe, it was great to see that he's doing fine. Hearing stories about old friends is always good fun. It's also fun(and shocking) to find out who's dating who now. Heard that another friend is getting married by the end of the year too. Seem like Zion's doing fine but I feel kinda bad ditching them for Melbourne. Hope you're not getting too stressed out Jim! It's good that you're faithfully serving but they should seriously cut you some slack. Did you guys seriously do "No Reason To Hide"? That's cra-zy!!

Oh, Perth. I wouldn't mind paying you visit next year. We'll see =)

My 7th month in Melbourne and I'm enjoying every minute of it or at least I'm trying too. It's great how almost everything's within walking distance and that the public transport is more efficient than back home and Perth. Having friends who stays in the same building and down the street make things merrier too. It's as though we're living out "FRIENDS", only that we're uni students, in Melbourne and asians.

Sem2 is looking good so far. Staying on top of uni work and still finding time to squeeze in busking, coffee runs and what other silly adventures with my girl friends. "Having ice-cream in the sun. That's what life should be."

Oh, Spring. I welcome you with open arms.

Expect a much warmer week ahead with a few showers. Everyday's a new day. Everyweek's a new week. It's a fresh new start! Embrace it like freshly printed lecture notes. Warm and fuzzy with the slight scent of printer ink.

Nerd out.























~ dinner for 2, ice-chocolate, a stroll down the street. I think I just went on my 1st date ~

For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic

UPDATE! Friday, Aug 14th, 2009

sihua: my struggles- holding hope in the world when i'm not with ppl who give me hope ('christian' friends)

Yea, I know what you mean man. Sometimes the people around us can be so cynical and pessimistic it's just like poison to us. Like I was just talking with ninja:

Julian: Hey, ninja! The weekend's here!!
Ninja: Yea. Monday's coming.

Julian: -_-"

What a killjoy.

I think I can relate with you but the question now is, "What am I suppose to do?" Right?

Hmmm if they are the poison, then we shall be the antidote. (haha so chessy)

So basically, as difficult as it may be, just hold on hope.


~ I fail at giving advice XD ~

at 5:05 PM
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Watch this video. It's smart. short. and sweet.




And a website I just discovered.

GiveMeHope - like FMyLife but for the optimists!

"my parents fight a lot, but the other day i found them slow dancing in the kitchen. it GMH. "

"I woke up one morning to hear the birds outside my window and my mother cooking breakfast downstairs. I've never cried so much in my entire life. I had been deaf since the age of 8. GMH."

Without a doubt, we live in an ugly world but these little snippets of another person's life reminds us that miracles do exist and that there is hope for this world.

And finally, some questions just to mess with your brain:

Are you part of a Lost Generation?

What is it that GiveYouHope?

Go ahead and post your thoughts here. I would love to hear/read them =)


~ Honestly I do think I am part of a Lost Generation but living in His promise GMH ~

And We Shall Busk At Dusk

It's quiet. Too quiet. Maybe all the noise around me is drowning you out. The hustle and bustle in my life. I'm just running around aimless everyday. Getting things done day in and day out. And by the time I get home I'll just be soo tired.

Hmmmm I think I'm starting to lose sight of what is important. Not good.

It's quiet. Too quiet. Maybe it's just a matter of time before something happens. But should I just sit around idly and wait for "IT" to happen or should I just get things rolling myself?

You're quiet God. Too quiet. Do you want me to be still? So that you can speak to me? If so, I should make some changes no?

Alright damn it! I'm gonna get desperate!

God, give me strength! Strength to surrender time and everything in your hands. So that I can make the changes. Changes for the better! Train my ears to be able to hear your still small voice! Give me the discipline this week to be still before you and to spend time with you. Be it a minute more, 10 minutes or 30 minutes, create a space where I'll be able to immerse myself in your presence! I thank you God. AMEN!~

Some times God can be so silent I just feel lost. But that's alright. Like how God's the shepherd and we are His sheeps, He will definitely find those of us who are lost.

I feel inspired. God, allow me to seize the week ahead. Let's make this a good one so that by the end of the week when a person ask me, "How're you doing?" Joey Tribbiani style, I'll be able to say with conviction, GOOD!

God. I thank you for people in my life, those who are concern about my spiritual walk with you. Those whom I can count on in trouble times and mentor me in a sense. From these mentoring sessions which I'm undertaking this sem, I pray that it will empower me and encourage spiritual growth.

Btw, busking is awesome even though we only earn like $1-$2 on a regular basis. Guess we're not worth Melbourne citizens' spare change. HA! But it's good fun especially when you meet weirdos interesting people on the streets. For example, the man with funny-money, hippie french ladies, a megaphone wielding "Pink" impersonator, fellow buskers and Take.

Take is this Japanese student Ian and I met while busking and mann he's cool. A fellow musician as well, Take jammed a bit with us showcasing his musical prowess before parting ways. I wasn't expecting any of this when I decided to get a busking license. Who would have thought we would meet so many different people or even make a new friend.

Life sure is full of surprises.

Can't wait for spring to come! It's too cold to busk during winter. Gotta cut Ian and Ann some slack heheh.

Oh, I love how this post is just one massive rojak! Don't you guys?

Guess it reflects my current state of mind.

Wee~ I love writing songs. I wanna write more and more and more!

Jaz ftw!

Breakdance is getting better each week too. Learning more and more difficult power and freeze moves. And have you guys seen the move called the "cockroach"? It's probably the most silliest move you will ever see. It gave me a pretty good laugh when I saw my instructor do it. Hilarious.

Alrighty! Think I've rambled long enough. Time to sleep, wake up and face the week ahead the only way I know how. With enthusiasm, a focused mind, an uncle toby muesli bar and an umbrella. Expect rain during the earlier part of this week.

And how can a post be complete without a picture?






















So who wants a cookie?


~ break me, mold me, use me, fill me ~

wtfloonie!?

Introducing the Floonies! The handmade multi-face puppets. Their primary purpose is to make us laugh and remind us not to take life too seriously. The Floonies are creativity toys with which you are able to create many different faces.

(I soo did not copy that off the back of its packaging haha.)

But don't let its looks deceive you! The Floonie is not just a mere toy. After days of research and sleepless nights, I have discovered 5 other uses for the Floonie. Presenting, the fruits of my labour!

Number 1: An arm rest





















Number 2: A phone dock




























Number 3: A stress ball




























Number 4: A friend






















and my favourite

Number 5: A monster from Dragon Quest




























Btw, due to positive feedback, I've decided to upload my previous video onto Youtube.

Go check it out! here


~ Warning! The Floonies are unsuitables for children under the age of 3 and are not intended for consumption ~

So Blessed

I can be so blind most of the time. I'm so blessed yet I take things, people, God and even myself for granted. Never more I say.

God, I thank you for the basic necessities which I have. Clothes to wear, a bed to sleep in, hot water, food and so much more. I thank you for the people in my life especially those whom I'm journeying with right now. They are truly a blessing in my life. God I thank you for who You are. You who holds nothing against me. You who listens to my whining.

You who heal my heart.
You who lift me up.
You who rescues me from my sins and shame.

And God, I thank you for this life you have given me. Use this life as you will and may it be one which honours you. Allow the holy spirit to work through me so that I may be your salt and light to those around me. Let these not be empty words but words of truth. AMEN!~

I must be pretty brave or lying to pray such a prayer. Let's hope it's the first reason!

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I have a confession to make.


I've always enjoyed celebrating other people's birthdays but I've never really enjoyed or even bothered celebrating my own. Yea, I know. What a loner.

This year, however, was an exception.

1st August.

Yup, I just celebrated my 19th birthday and I had a blast of a time!

As simple as it was, I love it! My recipe for a good steamboat party is:

A) The 4cs - cabbage, corn, carrots and chicken stock
B) A bunch of misfits friends for company
and
C) FISH TOFU!!

It's been such long time since I've smiled so much. I mean who wouldn't be happy eating steamboat? FISH TOFU!! Thanks to everyone who were there to celebrate with me and to those who weren't able to but send their wishes, thank you too!

I'm infamous for giving random/unconventional birthday presents to people. This ranges from a coconut to a barbie doll to a sarong to Carlsberg playing cards. This year, I've finally gotten a taste of my own medicine.

A mickey mouse watch.

A floonie. (gonna play around with it later)

and

A teapot + milk tea.

Not as random as mine but close enough. Wasn't expecting any presents, especially not the teapot and milk tea. So thanks heaps!!

What made my day sweeter was that I had not one but two birthday cakes!! Woohoo hahaha yes I can get very excited about cakes sometimes. Cakes makes me M.E.R.R.Y.

From now onwards, I'll be looking forward to the 1st of August. I mean hey, that's the day I was brought to life. I'm sure that's reason enough to celebrate.

And how can a birthday party be complete without a group picture

















or two

















or three.

















Soo sorry you missed out wince =( here's a little something just for you.

Thank you my Mcdonald-loving-"Paper Jam Incident"-buddy!

Winston "I love taking pictures of food" Chua!


~ a new day is dawning ~

Oh Familiarity?

Did you know that constipation and diarrhea are two different conditions?

Constipation is a condition in which there is difficulty in emptying the bowels, usually associated with harden feces.

Diarrhea, on the other hand, is a condition in which feces are discharged from the bowels frequently and in liquid form.

Only a fool would get two different extremes, such as these, jumbled-up.

Enough shit-talk.

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Sick and gastro-infected isn't the best way to start the first week of uni. Can't believe I actually missed a lecture! I don't miss lectures! Haha I can be such a nerd at times. But I'm feeling much better now. So this week's gonna be much better. (I hope)

After such a slow start last week, it's time to get serious!

I've wiped the dust off my desk.
I've organized my files.
I've sharpened my pencils.
I've packed my lunch.

Week 2's gonna be fun!


~ Bro's back and he brought a straw-hat, nice! ~

Doesn't Time Fly When You're Having Fun?

And so winter break is over.



~ Poh oh Poh ~

30 days later

and it's the weekend before semester 2.

30 days.

It's amazing how much and how little you can do in 30 days. So what have I been up too (besides the video) this winter break?

Bought my bongos.
Got my busking license.
Applied for a part-time job. (FAIL)
Had Starbucks.
Bended some wires.
Talked to strangers.
Brokedance. Breakdance.
and
THE LIST goes on.

I'll probably add a few photos later, maybe.

What made this holiday fun was the company I was with. I think I've gotten to know a few of my brothers and sisters better this break. Once the semester starts, I don't think we'll be hanging out as often but regardless of that, I reckon our social links have strengthen over the past 30 days.

Mann, why can't RMIT have another extra week of holidays. Then again 30 days is plenty! Hmmm it's already mid-year and a little over. This year's passing real quick. Well, what are you gonna do about it Julian? I don't think sem 2 gonna be as easy as sem 1, not saying that sem 1 was easy at all. And it seem that there are more things that I'm being committed to this sem. A busy sem it'll be, a busy sem it'll be.

Can you cope? Can you handle the pressure? Or will you-

I'll worry about that later. Tomorrow, I shall celebrate the closing of this awesome 30 days break with the MASTERCHEF's Finale!~

~ Go Poh! Go! Malaysia Boleh! ~
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A piece of good news

I did miraculously awesome in my sem 1 exams scoring, 1D and 3HDs! This is THE BEST I've ever achieved in any examination. Not even my report cards from kindergarten can top this! But I didn't really feel anything when I saw my results. No joy. No excitement. Nobody. Nothing. Maybe cause there weren't anyone around to celebrate with me (and the fact that I was falling sick thanks to the "Sydney Hangover" my sis left behind when she came to visit). Afterall, it would be pretty sad to do a victory dance alone. But I'm relieved the efforts paid off and glad that mother's happy. Now all I have to do is maintain this standard for seven more semester.


Cakewalk.


I think I owe someone a big thank you. There's no way I would be able to score like that without her help.

My study-buddy.

The one and only.

There can't be another.

Nobody, nobody but.

Only got one want.

Buy one, it's original. Buy two, one's pirated.


THANK YOU




















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Ninja: You spelt her name wrong.
Julian: ....I know.
Ninja: Aun's a guy.
Julian: ....I know.
Ninja: I think that's funny.
Julian: Me too!

*silence*

Ninja/Julian: Nakama! *high-five*


~ Sem 2, bring it on! ~

if you are chilli?

You're bored.

You're home alone.

You make a video.



The song is called The Way I am by Ingrid Michaelson.

For youtube link click here.


~ stole ann's joke muahaha ~

Man In The Mirror

The hat.
The shoes.
The moonwalk.
The pelvis trust.

These are the things that makes Michael Jackson such a celebrated icon.

After watching Michael Jackson's memorial (in between Masterchef) on tv, I think I've gain a new perspective of who Michael is. There is so much more to him than all the negativity surrounding him in the media. The memorial mourned his death and celebrated his life. People like Mariah Carey, John Meyer, Stevie Wonder and Lionel Richie performed at the memorial. It was definitely an event every Michael Jackson fan would love. An event which celebrated all his positives. How irony that a tragedy is able to bring so many people together.

The words that were spoken about Michael wasn't the Michael we know of from television but the Michael who was a friend and family member. This gave me a glimpse of who Michael was through their eyes and not through some gossip magazine. As quoted from Reverend Al Sharpton, "He wasn't strange. It was strange he had to deal with." He was like everyone one of us. A normal person who loves singing, dancing and Kentucky Fried Chicken!

Magic Johnson talks about how MJ loves KFC!

Unfortunately, he was another superstar disfigured, consumed by the evils of Hollywood and its lifestyle. Despite all the negativity surrounding Michael, deep down I've always been rooting for him hoping that one day he would make a comeback, just like Britney Spears. Alas, he didn't get the chance to do so.

I'm not a die-heart fan of Michael but I enjoy watching and listening to his performances and songs. 'Smooth Criminal' was one of the first songs I learned on the drums and it was pretty fun to play to. I would have soo love to attend one of his concerts but I guess it wasn't meant to be.

His music was part of my childhood so it's kinda sad. Sad that he's gone a little too soon.

A father, an entertainer, a musical genius, the King of Pop.

Goodbye Michael. You will be missed.


~ maybe they'll leave you alone now ~

Bay 66

Have a safe trip guys. Hope you guys will have heaps of fun and bring back lots and lots of stories to tell. May this journey be one which brings forth growth and new revelations in each and everyone of you. Stay safe and don't do anything stupid! Look out for one another (especially that underage kid) and look left, right and left before crossing the road (especially that underage kid).

Don't forget to bring me back a souvenir!


See you later =)


~ and so begins the adventure of one boy + another ~

Holding My Thoughts Inside ~Reprise~

Alrighty! It's finally here. The post that will bring an end to 3 years worth of questions.

I've been living in the past for far too long. Living in past glories, past failures. Looking at old photos, listening to old songs, thinking about the "what ifs". Enough is enough. It's time I moved on.

A few weeks back, I was so pissed off at myself. Pissed off for being blind and deaf towards God. Pissed off for disappointing others and myself. Pissed off for being pissed off. But don't worry, things are better now.

Last Sunday's service was a wake up call for me. I've been carrying too many baggages with me over the past years and before I knew it, the weight was too much for me to handle. Even though God has commanded me to march forward, I didn't. To be more precise, I couldn't. The baggages were weighing me down to the point where standing was difficult what more taking a step forward. But God, you've made me realised how insignificant these baggages are.

So today, I'm deleting my old photos,
I'm deleting my old songs,
I'm deleting my old emails.

Afterall, there's so much more new photos for me to take, songs to sing and emails to type.

Ok, maybe I won't delete all the photos. I'll keep the ones I could use to blackmail my friends kekekeke

The future is up for the taking and I want it. God, give me the strength to surrender my future and my past to you. I am weak but you are strong. Humble me once again Lord. I can't do this alone but through you, all things are possible. Clean the ashes in my heart and keep the fire burning within me. Thank you, Lord. AMEN!~

I'm thankful for all the people that I've journeyed with. I really am. To prove it, I'm gonna use this space to thank you guys.

SIB Youth, I thank you guys for making my Saturday nights DA BOMB! Mac, if you're reading this, I want to thank you. What you're doing with the Youth is amazing. I believe that many will come to know Christ through you! Keep going strong Mac!

I never said goodbye did I? Hahaha, who knows? I might drop by when I'm back home.

And for all you Zion people, even though it might have been just a short period of time, you guys have taught me so much. I'll do my best not to let you guys down. Special thanks to my cell leaders Francis, Jeremy and Stanley. Also not forgetting my sorta drums mentor Josh. Thanks heaps! I'll definitely carry the "Zion Spirit" with me wherever I go.

Well then, I guess that just leaves those whom I'm journeying with right now. You guys know who you are. There's only so many of you who knows about this blog heheh. Within this short period of time I've learn so much from you guys whether you know it or not. You guys are really an inspiration. So, thanks guys. Here's to a good time ahead no matter how long or how short it may be.

I'm gonna let my memories be memories. It's about time I stop living in the past and embrace the future. Hahaha I feel much better now. I've face myself. The baggages are gone. Hmmmm I guess this brings an end to a chapter in my life. It's been one heck of a ride but it's not over!

It's been a while since I've done this, so brace yourself! Here comes step number three.


Hi, I'm Julian

and I got a haircut.


~ get it? ~

Disappeared

De Xin: JULIAAAAAAAAAAAN! You just disappeared without any farewell party! I've been good haha you? What uni are you in now? And what course?????? My gawsh you literally disappeared!

Julian: I'm good too. Been busy with assignments and exams coming up but I'm coping hahaha I'm in RMIT doing Geomatics(go wiki it)! disappeared? hahaha I do that some times.

I had this conversation with a friend of mine a while back. And I think it's hilarious.

It seems that I'm constantly being pulled out of my comfort zone over and over again. When I've finally settled down and ready to embrace what I have, I'm off to someplace else leaving my new found friends and familiarity behind.

But I guess I'm getting used to it. I've been disappearing ever since I left Lodge at the end of 2006.

Disappearing from Lodge School.
Disappearing from SIB Youth.
Disappearing from Zion Praise Harvest.

Can't say I disappeared from CCGS since I graduated from there. So you could say I have a good three years experience on disappearing.

Coming to Melbourne wasn't difficult for me with bro being here and all. As a matter of fact, ever since bro made the decision to study in Melbourne, I knew that's where I'll be in 5 years time. But what I didn't see coming was mother's plans to put me in Perth. Honestly, I wasn't keen about it at all but I gave in and accepted it as unchangeable.

So, with the mind set of Form 4 being my last year in Lodge, I did my best to enjoy my final year there so that I won't leave behind any regrets. Now, mother has this funny way of pissing me off. At the end of Form 4 she asked me:

"Eh, you sure you want to go to Perth, meh? You can stay for Form 5 you know?"

Sighhhhhhhh

Well, you know the rest of the story. I disappeared to Perth and from there disappeared to Melbourne.

Thinking about it now triggers all sorts of thoughts in my head.

What would it be like if I've stayed for Form 5?
Would I've done well in my SPM?
Would I've shared a closer bond with my Youth group?
Would I've come straight to Melbourne after that?
Would I've studied in Trinity instead of CCGS?
Would I've been in all these pictures?



Would I've..... not disappeared?

The past few posts has just been a giant mess of thoughts and questions. Thoughts and questions which has been weighing me down for quite awhile. Guess I just needed someplace to put them down and get them out of my system.

You guys are probably wondering where I'm heading with all this.

To find out......























~ It's the season finale! ~

Makes Me Wonder

Two week ago at Gloria Jeans, I saw the future.

A group of high school kids were having tea a few tables in front of me and I was just observing them. They were all smiling and chattering away. Suddenly I was overcome by nostalgia for my days in Lodge. See them in their uniforms didn't make things better. It surprises me that even after being aboard for 2 and a half years I would still feel so nostalgic. Ha! I guess I really do miss those days.

Those carefree days not worrying about what's for dinner, when to do your laundry or whether there's any milk in the fridge. Mom had that all covered. Those carefree days talking about videogames and animes. Those carefree days cracking lame jokes with your pals and just goofing around.

I remember when I was in Form 2, I would have this conversation with my good friend Lee everyday after school:

Aron: So, what homework do we have?
Julian: Maths.

And it never fails to crack me up. (It's an inside joke but let's just say it involves sarcasm)

This is where it gets interesting.

I took my eyes off them for a minute and when I looked back, the kids morphed/transformed into a bunch of a-mas! The first thing that ran through my mind was "Woah! I've been to the year 3000!" hahaha what really happen was.....

After the kids left, a group of elderly came and sat at the exact spot where the kids were before. And this got me thinking.

Where would I be 50 years from now?

Would I be sitting in a cafe having coffee with my childhood friends? Taking pictures and joking around like we were in our teens? (That was what the grannies were doing by the way)
Would I be living in Australia or good old Malaysia?
Would I be able to understand chemistry better than I did in high school?
Would I still be playing videogames and watching animes?

Or would I be dead?


I blame Jon.

Honestly, I can't see where I'll be in 50 years. Heck, I'm not even sure where I'll be in 5 years time. And you know what, I'm not worry about it at all.

My future is in God's hands. So does that mean life's gonna be easy?

NOT AT ALL. I think it's actually gonna get harder.

God's gonna throw all sorts of funny things at me. To test me, to break me, to piss me off and to entertain Himself. I always have this fun image in my head where God's looking down at me and just for fun, throws temptation at me. Like some sort of scientific experiment, He will observe my reactions in accordance to the manipulated variables. But that's just how I humour myself.

Yeah, it's gonna be tough. It's definitely gonna be tough. But God keeps his promise,

1 Corinthians 10:13
Good news version

- and He will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the time you are put to the test, He will give you the strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out.

Now all that's left is the question of faith. Faith to believe His word, His promise.

So do I have faith in God? All I can say right now is 'Yes'!

But try asking me next time I fail my exams, lose an arm or God-forbid, a family member or friend (there's more than one way to lose a family member or friend, so stop thinking about the worst case scenario, dammit!).

I can only hope my answer would be a yes too. Shouldn't be THAT hard.






















~ So many questions, no answers at all. Aren't you glad life isn't an exam? ~

How To Mend A Broken Heart

Just last year it seems that being in a relationship was the 'in' thing. It was like a plague spreading quicker than Swine Flu! Ex-classmates were holding hands and being lovey dovey with people I hardly knew or never even met. Fresh out of an all-boys school, I felt robbed. What did I missed out on the past two years!? noooooo where has my youth gone to! but now, things have changed.

Recently a friend started a blog after his break-up. He talks about how sad, angry and regretful he feels. Sad? I mean who wouldn't be? And I guess I could understand why he's angry but I won't disclose the reason here. Regretful? Hmmmm now that's an interesting one.

What is it like to be in a regretful relationship?

Regret that you watched The Notebook with her when you wanted to watch Rambo?
Regret that you spent the whole afternoon waiting for her to get her hair and nails done while all your friends were out playing soccer?
Regret that you sold your Playstation because she said gaming was for losers with no life?
Regret that your biological clock's a mess after spending hours on the phone with her every night? (seriously, how is this even possible? The longest I've spent time on the phone with a girl is 3o seconds and a dude, 30 minutes..........uh-oh, this shouldn't be a cause for concern right?)

Yes, in a relationship sacrifices are bound to be made. But to regret it after a relationship is over? Hmmmmm I guess they didn't read the fine prints before signing the contract:

"We are not liable for any broken-hearts, emotional scars, or life-long regrets before or after a relationship. And no, we don't do refunds."

So what are you left with if your source of strength, your motivation, your driving force leaves you? (If that is what you've made your relationship to be).

Is anger, sadness and regret all that's left? If so, I rather be a monk.

But you know what. I believe that after all the sadness, better things are yet to come. Sure it's gonna be tough. Sure it's gonna take time to heal the wounds. But those who are able to pick themselves up again will grow stronger and much more mature. At least that's what I hope for. So hang in there all you broken-hearted people. Better things are yet to come.




















So how do you mend a broken heart?

I have no idea! Afterall, I've never been in a relationship myself and I don't think I'll be in one anytime soon. Maybe when I'm in university. Cause that's where all the smart girls are.

Well if there's one thing that I'm sure of now is this. I can only pray for my broken-hearted friends. Advice? I'm the last person you want dating advice from. But if you need someone to listen, I'm all ears. That's all I'm good for heheh.

I guess it's true when they say most people don't end up marrying their childhood sweethearts.

Sighhhhhh

Love isn't blind. Love blinds.

Not sure what that means but it sound cool.


~ expect more thoughts, more questions and more youth! ~
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Ninja : Hey, genius. You already in uni.
Julian : .........oh.