Holding My Thoughts Inside ~Reprise~

Alrighty! It's finally here. The post that will bring an end to 3 years worth of questions.

I've been living in the past for far too long. Living in past glories, past failures. Looking at old photos, listening to old songs, thinking about the "what ifs". Enough is enough. It's time I moved on.

A few weeks back, I was so pissed off at myself. Pissed off for being blind and deaf towards God. Pissed off for disappointing others and myself. Pissed off for being pissed off. But don't worry, things are better now.

Last Sunday's service was a wake up call for me. I've been carrying too many baggages with me over the past years and before I knew it, the weight was too much for me to handle. Even though God has commanded me to march forward, I didn't. To be more precise, I couldn't. The baggages were weighing me down to the point where standing was difficult what more taking a step forward. But God, you've made me realised how insignificant these baggages are.

So today, I'm deleting my old photos,
I'm deleting my old songs,
I'm deleting my old emails.

Afterall, there's so much more new photos for me to take, songs to sing and emails to type.

Ok, maybe I won't delete all the photos. I'll keep the ones I could use to blackmail my friends kekekeke

The future is up for the taking and I want it. God, give me the strength to surrender my future and my past to you. I am weak but you are strong. Humble me once again Lord. I can't do this alone but through you, all things are possible. Clean the ashes in my heart and keep the fire burning within me. Thank you, Lord. AMEN!~

I'm thankful for all the people that I've journeyed with. I really am. To prove it, I'm gonna use this space to thank you guys.

SIB Youth, I thank you guys for making my Saturday nights DA BOMB! Mac, if you're reading this, I want to thank you. What you're doing with the Youth is amazing. I believe that many will come to know Christ through you! Keep going strong Mac!

I never said goodbye did I? Hahaha, who knows? I might drop by when I'm back home.

And for all you Zion people, even though it might have been just a short period of time, you guys have taught me so much. I'll do my best not to let you guys down. Special thanks to my cell leaders Francis, Jeremy and Stanley. Also not forgetting my sorta drums mentor Josh. Thanks heaps! I'll definitely carry the "Zion Spirit" with me wherever I go.

Well then, I guess that just leaves those whom I'm journeying with right now. You guys know who you are. There's only so many of you who knows about this blog heheh. Within this short period of time I've learn so much from you guys whether you know it or not. You guys are really an inspiration. So, thanks guys. Here's to a good time ahead no matter how long or how short it may be.

I'm gonna let my memories be memories. It's about time I stop living in the past and embrace the future. Hahaha I feel much better now. I've face myself. The baggages are gone. Hmmmm I guess this brings an end to a chapter in my life. It's been one heck of a ride but it's not over!

It's been a while since I've done this, so brace yourself! Here comes step number three.


Hi, I'm Julian

and I got a haircut.


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